I Want...

I want Spring. Flowers. Green. Warm Breezes. Bright Sunshine. Long Daylight. New Energy. Anticipation. Life Renewed.

He's Back!

Well, my boy is back and I couldn't be happier. He had a good experience in Denver but it just wasn't the place for someone who loves hot desert temperatures. Georgia will fit better I believe. He is back living with his friends in Gainesville and starting the job search again. I'm glad he is back with his many friends from that area and back to the church he really enjoyed also. I'm also happy and relieved that we get to see him whenever we want instead of having to fly across the country on a planned vacation. I am praying for him as he listens carefully to the Lord for his next step.

Snowy Valentine's Weekend

Such gorgeous days yesterday and today. And, no, not the usual meaning of gorgeous weather. Instead of sunny, breezy, and blue skies, we had snowy, dark gray skies, 30 degrees, and 4 inches of snow. In the South, that is amazing. We had a wonderful time.

Yesterday, I had my usual visit with my baby granddaughter. I went early in case the snow messed up our plans. There's always the possibility that it will cause road problems and it did. We went to Walmart in the morning and got the pretty girl a big, stuffed Valentine bear. Later on, after nap time, when the snow was coming down pretty heavily, we got her outside in the snow. She was loving it and her little cheeks were pink in the cold. She's not wanting to eat these days (except her daily grilled cheese) so we pushed her high chair up to the glass door and managed to get some food down her while she was distracted looking at the snow.
Hubby and I started home around 3 and the roads were already getting bad. The snow continued until around midnight and we woke up this morning to a beautiful sight with the sun on the snow. Cars were slowly going by sounding like they were on gravel roads. The snow is melting now and I hope the roads will dry out today and clear so we can go to church in the morning for Valentine's Day. I'll get to wish my son-in-law a "Happy Birthday" also!

On another subject, in a previous post I mentioned a problem that I was in the middle of that wasn't of my making. I had specifically asked the Lord for an opening to talk about it with the person involved and He provided that opening not even 2 hours later. All went well, though I was extremely nervous, and the situation has improved greatly. Just wanted to say publicly, Thank You, Jesus. Why are we always surprised when God answers our prayers? "My God is a big God" as our K'ekchi' friends say.

Every Breath I Take

I feel honestly that I cannot breathe without the Lord. His presence is just there. All the time. I can't explain it but I know it. Even when I'm saying, thinking, or feeling something I shouldn't, His presence is there. Comforting or disciplining both. He is there when I'm rejoicing in the birth of a grandchild. He is there when I am hurting from rejection. Even if I wanted to, I cannot escape it.


Lord, you have seen what is in my heart.
You know all about me.
You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know what I'm thinking even though you are far away.
You know when I go out to work and when I come back home.
You know exactly how I live.
Lord, even before I speak a word,
you know all about it.
You are all around me. You are behind me and in front of me.
You hold me in your power.
I'm amazed at how well you know me.
It's more than I can understand.
How can I get away from your Spirit?
Where can I go to escape from you?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
If I lie down in the deepest parts of the earth, you are also there.
Suppose I were to rise with the sun in the east
and then cross over to the west where it sinks into the ocean.
Your hand would always be there to guide me.
Your right hand would still be holding me close. (Psalm 139:1-10)

Stream of Consciousness

the continuous unedited chronological flow of conscious experience through the mind

With no intended direction, my thoughts today...Beautiful sunny day, thank You, Lord. I'm about sick of this rain and cold. Could we not have an early spring? I'm so ready for green trees and flowers and warm spring breezes and playing with the baby outside and strolling through the Avenue.

Such beautiful music in church today. After we got to church, that is. Poor daughter got stranded with a dead battery at home and we went to help her out and missed Sunday School. Well, I can handle missing S.S. but not worship. And you just have to help your pregnant daughter and her 10 month old baby. And that girl was not happy about missing "Breakfast Sunday"...haha...don't mess with a pregnant woman's breakfast. Anyway, the music was wonderful as we sang "Mighty to Save" and "How Marvelous, How Wonderful" with 90-something choir members and the church looked pretty packed. Then the choir sang "Holy is He" and that was amazing. My minister of music aka my boss was on his game today...I wonder if he's happy with me these days. I keep making mistakes and you know I have that foggy thinking problem that women my age have. Ooops. Who knows, I could be catapulted into a new job at any time...just like last time when my principal didn't like the way I taught my ESOL class even though I was going to class to learn how to teach ESOL and that's how they taught me to teach it and so I decided I needed to find another career because I'd about had it with administration and paperwork and meetings and not getting to spend time teaching when they constantly called me out of my room to translate for the Spanish-speaking parents. Ugh. So here I am, almost 5 years later and I'm happy in my ministry assistant job. For now. But, heck, that's the mentality of my 52-year-old self and could lead to trouble if I don't stop running my mouth.

So here I am, at home, waiting for the Super Bowl to start so I can watch some commercials. I'd like New Orleans to win because I lived in New Orleans for 3 years back in the mid-80s when the Saints' fans wore paper sacks over their heads at the games. Ha! Of course if they don't win, it'll be Bush's fault, right? Alrighty I'm not getting started on the politics stuff. My husband takes care of that end.

Sitting by the fire on a cold, sunny day. Looking forward to the week. Thanks for listening.

Lots of Reasons for Prayer

Just lately in my life I'm feeling the pressure of many changes and some interesting situations. Little granddaughter is growing so fast, walking, so loving and charming. Then there's her mommy who is my much-loved daughter now pregnant again and, though she's feeling well, I still pray for her safety, health and that this littlest one will develop and grow and be born healthy.

My son is praying intently for God's will for his future. I pray for wisdom for him and that he will see clearly and find God's best for him. I feel that there will be some decisions for him to make in the next few months.

I have friends who are in challenging circumstances within their families and are struggling to take things a day at a time and to leave their burdens with the Lord. I'm also stuck in the middle of a sticky situation that is not of my making but is causing some real tension in my life as I try not to get involved but yet try to maintain the peace.

Add all this to some physical stuff I'm experiencing and you get the picture. Hey! My whole body shape is changing with shifting weight! Where my clothes were tight, now they're loose. And vice versa! Haha. AH...it's great being 52.

All this to say that I am following the Bible command to "pray unceasingly". I'm so thankful I have the Lord to listen to me and give me comfort and wisdom.